Good

God's good to me.

Today's the day where we celebrate how good God is. And he really fascinates me sometimes. Especially lately.

It seems like a lot of times when we talk about how good God is, we mean it in this self-centered way. Like how God has poured out blessings upon us, supplied our needs, worked miracles.

And these things are all totally and completely awesome. I love blessings. I honestly do. And God is good to me. I'm fortunate. My needs are supplied. And even my wants.

Insert side note that tonight I found out that a couple in my home church is selling their VW Bug in February. Very affordable. And it's green. Score. Most definitely a want. But supplied. Nonetheless. But that's seriously not my point.

I was talking to a friend of mine tonight who knows what's been going on over the past couple months. The stuff that's not resolved, but that I'm getting through. And becoming better from. She asked how I was doing, how the situation was going, and when I replied, she asked me, "Have you heard from God lately?"

And the answer was mixed.

Yes and no.

Let's just say that God has no issue being direct with me. Like, going to Gateway was a direct thing. God pretty much had to tell me that he wanted me to go there. And I'm really glad he did. Going to Paraguay was a direct thing. God pretty much had to tell me (and help me through) every step of the way. And despite the issues, I'm really glad he told me to do that, too.

And this hasn't been like that.

But at the same time, it has.

Sometimes what you need...okay, what I need...is not a direct word. Sometimes God doesn't give you the whole picture right away. Sometimes all you get is a little piece of the puzzle. And God tells you where to put it. He redirects your prayers. So that they're less self-centered and more Him-centered. So that your prayer isn't necessarily, "Hey, God, I want this. Need this. Would prefer this."

It's more of a, "Hey God, you know what's going to happen. So, if you're not going to tell me, help me through it anyway."

Because really, that's the truth. He does know. He does get it. And he knows what it is that you want. He knows the desires of your heart.

But he also knows what you need.

And that's not always what you want at the time.

But it has a pretty cool way of always working out in the end. One way or another.

And even if what happens isn't ideal, you can look back and realize that God had his reasons. And that he really is good. Even if it's not your idea of good, he really is.

God is good to me.