Thursday, February 28, 2008
I have no words for this....
Wednesday, February 27, 2008
Oh no! Not another post of woes!
Let me preface this by saying I am, for the most part, quite over Smitty Wethermenjensen. Seeing a guy with his girlfriend kind of ruins him for you. He's a nice guy, she makes him happy, and if he's happy, then that's great. It's not like she's the Wicked Witch of the East. Which sucks for me. Less reasons to despise her. Anyway, I think he's nice and if he were to one day look my way, I would gladly say yeah. But at the moment, he's not, and life will go on. However, when a statement like the one I am about to make comes out of a guy like Smitty, it kinda feels like pouring alcohol on a gash. A big gash. In your pericardial region.
So, anyway. Youth group.Tonight. Round table discussion, which I love.
Topic: Where do you see yourself in 2 years?
Smitty: I'll have a house. Be working as a mechanic. And it's a good possibility that I could be married by then. You never know.
Um, yeah, what?!?!?! Yeah, dude, I know you'll be 20 then, but please rewind there and give me some notice before you drop bombs like that on me! Sheesh!
In case you didn't notice, a little piece of me died right then. I even created this.
P.S. If anyone uses the phrases, "You have so much time", "You're so young", or "Plenty of Fish in The Sea", or any other derivitive of the those phrases, I may fight them to the pain.
When Trust Is Gone...
There is an adult who I have been very close to for about the past year. I trusted them very much and confided most everything in them. (It is none of the afore mentioned people. Mistie and Carolyn, you can take a breather of relief.) About a month ago, this person did something that hurt me incredibly badly. I may be overreacting a little bit, but it hurt incredibly.
The thing that kills me about this situation is that I can no longer really talk to this person and be sure that they are being honest with me. I have so much going on right now, most of all this one big roller-coaster of a problem that I can't really go into here because of some people who read this, and I don't know who to confide in. I don't know who to go to for advice on the matter and I miss having a trustworthy adult (no offense, guys) who I could sit and have conversations with. I mean, I still can talk but it's not the same. That trust is gone.
I want to go and talk to the individual about the issue I'm having. I'm so afraid that the words won't come out right and I'll destroy a very good friendship and mentorship. That terrifies me.
How Ironic....

This is quite ironic because today I came across two posts on blogs that I read about Obama, too.
Twilight zone-ish.
Anyway, my voter registration is on my computer at the moment, and although I can't vote in the primary, I will be sending in my registration within the next couple weeks and I did list a party. I registered as a Democrat.
Yes, I can hear the screams of horror from here. Ouch.
Sorry, but McCain scares me.
Also, my former favorite place, Sips, has been defiled for me. Hilary was there today. *shudder*
In other news....
The blood drive was today, and I was all revved up to make a double contribution and got to the table. I didn't have my ID. I called home for my ID. My ID was not brought to me. So, on the bright side, no needles were inserted into my flesh today. On the not-so-bright side, Buddy Blood Drop is disappointed in me. Oh well. He'll deal with it.
Tomorrow I get to dissect a heart. Go me!
My life is so boring.
Tuesday, February 26, 2008
Fans...I Gotz Them
They were back from November, so I replied, apologizing profusely for replying half a year later.
This has been my self-confidence booster of the day.
Monday, February 25, 2008
I love sleepovers....
Let me preface this by saying that I have no idea why they call these things sleepovers. Nobody sleeps. And if you do sleep, you get called a pansy. Ask Rachel. More on that later. Anyway, it's like wakes. The dead person isn't going to wake up. The English language is so dumb.
After church last night, I went to Nikki's house at about 8:30. Everyone was congregated in the kitchen, sitting on the floor, eating pizza and drinking Mountain Dew. We have the most random conversations on earth. And it's hard to eat pizza with a 6-month-old puppy who wants you to share everything with her. But she was cute and fuzzy, so we put up with her.
After about an hour of sitting on a kitchen floor, one tends to get bored. So we moved on to the highlight of my evening. I have become a Guitar Hero III addict. Not a good one, but an addict nonetheless. And on some of the songs, I dominated. The game is ridiculously absorbing. We beat the game on Easy, then attempted to play Medium and all of us but Nikki and Erica got our butts handed to us. We looked at the clock after this miserable failure and it was 2 AM. We spent FIVE hours on Guitar Hero without knowing it. That's insane, people!
My friends decided to have fun, that I did not partake in, and to protect their alibis, I will not give the details here. Let's just say that Nikki's mother is missing 17 eggs from the fridge, and my friends disappeared for about 20 minutes. They also burned their plans. They're so thorough. Good for them. May I reiterate that I did not partake in this act of vandalism? My mom told me to use good judgment, and for once I listened to her. I was supposedly lookout, if you count sitting in a recliner and taking a 15-minute power nap looking out.
When they got back, had a brief scare that half of their team took a little longer than expected, went out to look for them, only to find that they were getting ready to enter the house and just missed them, we once again congregated in the kitchen, ate delicious brownies, and planned what to do next. Nikki talked us into watching a home movie of her 3rd birthday party. Oh the fashions of the early 90's. They were definitely interesting. After this we decided that Hollywood probably had more interesting material than Nikki hitting the poor Puff The Magic Dragon pinata over and over. So we busted out 10 Things I Hate About You.
At this point it was 4 AM. We rolled out sleeping bags, I claimed the couch, Rachel claimed the recliner, and Nikki claimed the remote and we settled in to watch Heath and had our deepest conversation of the evening, which was whether we liked Heath better in Knight's Tale or in 10 Things. We decided he had better hair in Knight's Tale, but flashes the pearly whites more in 10 Things. This made it a draw. Rachel fell asleep right after the movie started, and when she woke up this morning complained about how late she stayed up and how tired she was. We called her a pansy because she didn't even make it through the movie. And told her to quit her whining.
So, in the wee hours of the morning, about 5:45, we ended up sleeping. And then waking up at 12:30. It was awesome.
May I also credit the fine people at the Jones Soda Company for their fine concoction of Berry Lemonade, which is about 50% carbonated water and inverted cane sugar. You won't be able to sleep after you drink it. And it's quite delicious, too.
Saturday, February 23, 2008
Friday, February 22, 2008
Of all the days...
Of all the days....
Thursday, February 21, 2008
Things I'm Actually Semi-Legal For.....

Wednesday, February 20, 2008
More Books
P.S. Sorry, Shana. I really did hate The Notebook. It bored me to tears and was incredibly cheesy.
Tuesday, February 19, 2008
If I had my way...
- Amazon.Com- I would be buying several Nicholas Sparks books (because I read A Walk To Remember and it was amazing and made me cry. And I'm in the middle of Message In A Bottle) and Jodi Picoult books.
- Best Buy or Circuit City- I want a camera. A digital camera. So I don't have to bum my parents'.
- Acuvue- I hate glasses.
- Old Navy- Yay for clothes!!!
Message in a Bottle isn't that bad, either.
Must decide what book of his to read next. I refuse to read The Notebook. Dumbest movie ever and the book, from what I've heard, isn't exactly the most appropriate thing ever.
Monday, February 18, 2008
Ok. last one, I promise....
The research paper, psych proposal, and review worksheet are all done!! Woohoo!! Lookie there!!P.S.
Ever since she and her brothers and sister first laughed their butt off at me getting pounded in the face when I was uploading the video onto YouTube, Tonya has been deciding (as has Ali) who she loves and who she thinks is the big meanie of the story. (Hey, she's 4. ) So, tonight while in the presence of Garrett, she claimed that she loved him more. He did, however bribe her with candy, and also, after he went home she came up and gave me a hug and said she actually loved me more because Garrett was an icky boy with cooties. She's a smart kid.
Also,
And also, he stole my phone.
My very cool phone.
Which is a God in comparison to his phone.
And he's jealous.
Evil meanie.
I have decided that I.....
- A Walk To Remember- watched it yesterday afternoon with Carolyn and Alison and had never seen it before. I bawled like a baby. And then had a lousy night so came home and watched it again. It was easier to pay attention to it that time, too. It is now up there with my favorites. I less than three it amazingly.
- Sleep- I'm exhausted right now and need a nap in the worst way.
- Spell Check- Takes some of the effort (but not all) out of proofreading research papers.
- MySpace- I always have, always will.
- Samoas- I have loved them since I was a Girl Scout, but now with it being cookie season I find myself sitting in KAP American History, listening to lectures like- "And the US took posession of the Samoan Islands..." and thinking- "Mmmmmm....coconutty goodness..."
Hate:
- Research papers- Do you know how hard it is to come up with a good concluding paragraph?
- Drama- as in whininess, not theatre. I love theatre. Hate whininess.
- Exhaustion- It's getting the better of me.
- Amazon.com- They never shipped out that book I need to have read by tomorrow for KAP. Morons.
- Psychological Research Studies- I'm supposed to be writing a proposal for an experiment for psych. I love psych, but this proposal is a chore.
Saturday, February 16, 2008
No, really...we're 'sponsible!
Friday, February 15, 2008
Suh-weet!
Mistie ordered a pizza from Stone Oven, a large pizza. I am proud to announce that we finished it. By ourselves. Does this make us pigs? No. It makes us accomplished, thankyouverymuch.
Oh, and what kind of pizza? Mistie is slightly lactose intolerant, so she asked them to please go easy on the cheese. We had a sauce pizza. With a few cheese polka dots. We enjoyed it anyway.
We also downed a 2-liter of Mountain Dew.
I only did half of my Ben and Jerry's Twisted Half-Baked ice cream. The rest is in Mistie's freezer where I forgot about it because we were laughing too hard over My Big Fat Greek Wedding and Sweet Home Alabama.
Carolyn kept me updated on some of the high points of the banquet. Such as Garrett running into a beam in the annex loft while blindfolded. This also caused Mistie and I great fits of laughter. It was awesomized.
Me quieras o me muerto!

Also, my list for today is reasons that I love my lunch table-
- Where else do the tables resound with the sounds of Weird Al and Tom Lehrer? All the time. Everyday. It's amazing.
- They consider me a rock god because I can do the entire Numa Numa dance from memory.
- The Daily Tribute, a comic that AC publishes every day that never ceases to be wrought with geek humor.
- Our mutual love of Achmed.
- Mine and Emily's daily rendition of the Eagle Song. Which rocks.
- Our slightly communistic traits, but not in the scary way. Every day, Emily divides her cheesy poofs between me and Sam because she hates them. Sam divides his cookies between me and Ian. I provide ranch dressing and apple sauce for Amber and Emily's various concoctions. AC frequently bums at least a dollar from Brian 1, Brian 2, or Sam.
- The table typically seats 4, but there are about 10 of us there.
- We're all geeks and we are so incredibly proud of it.
I felt like that statement just had to be made. I love my lunch table. I look forward to lunch everyday.
And, closing with Nikki as well, she got the most romantic Valentine's note/essay from her non-boyfriend yesterday. She cried. I nearly cried reading it. It was beautiful. I told her I hated her for it, in a completely loving, friendly way. She's glad that I hate her in a completely loving and friendly way.
And now I must go clean my room so I can go to Mistie's, eat ice cream, and watch chick flicks. Which will be much more fun than the banquet I am missing tonight. MUCH more.
Wednesday, February 13, 2008
Tuesday, February 12, 2008
One of those situations...
- Tonight I went to work on my English paper and found that all of my notecards were missing. I started crying.
- I'm trying to fill out a scholarship application for Rotary Club to maybe go to South America during the 2009-10 school year for 3 months to a whole year. I will be a college freshman that year. That scares me. It made me cry.
- I'm filling out applications for COTC and MVNU. For next year. I started crying again.
- Then I listened to Alvin and the Chipmunks sing "Bad Day". This helped a lot.
Anti-Valentine's Day
See?

So, in case you don't understand my loathing of Valentine's, I did a survey on MySpace that was labeled the "Love Day Survey!" I removed that title and put something else in. I don't remember what.
1. Are you single or taken?
I'm single.
2. Chocolate or flowers?
Roses, por favor
3. Will you do anything special for Valentines Day?
No. I hate that stupid holiday.
4. Do you like anyone?
Yeah.
5. Were you dating anyone last Valentines?
No.
6. What would be your dream Valentines date?
Just chilling with the boyfriend that i don't have.
7. Do you make a big deal about Valentines?
No. I hate it.
8. Have you ever had a secret admirer?
Yes. In like 2nd grade.
9. Would you ever write someone a love letter?
If I had a person to write one to
10. Do you believe in Cupid?
Yes. Also, the tooth fairy, easter bunny, santa claus, and the guy out there that is perfect for me.
11. Do your parents give you presents on Valentines?
Yes.
12. Do you still send out Valentines cards?
No
13. Do you like candy hearts?
Yes
14. What is something you got last Valentines?
A snow day.
15. Is Valentines depressing?
Yes. I hate it..
16. How do you feel about PDA?
It's gross.
17. How is your love life going?
Are you seriously asking me this? It's about as dead as Bambi's mom!
18. Have you ever been dumped on Valentines?
Yes, thanks for bringing up painful memories, you jerk.
19. How many roses would you want?
Any.
20. Will you have a boyfriend/girlfriend next Valentines?
It's in two days. My chances are slim.
Monday, February 11, 2008
What is the world coming to?
I can't even imagine having a baby at 17. By myself.
Methinks this isn't really a bad thing.
I went to Burger King
I went to Burger King yesterday with Dawn and all of her kids. I sat at a table with 3 of them and was forced to wear a crown. The horror! I did however, get a great video of Muhammad singing various VeggieTale songs, which cracked me up.
Saturday, February 9, 2008
Why I Rock.
WTM Special Report
A similar case was reported last winter, when Diego's brother, Baby Jaguar, was found unconscious in his cage after a cold night. He nearly froze to death and though he had been a very mean and vicious hamster prior to his near-death-experience, he became very humane and loving after his treatment. Experts supposed that the similar experience would tame Diego, and for about 24 hours he seemed to be recovered. However, after being released, it has been revealed that Diego is just as mean and nasty as before.
Friday, February 8, 2008
My new theme song
Note:If you are involved with PETA and/or Animal Rights, you may not like this song. But I don't care
Thursday, February 7, 2008
You probably will never know....
While I was fuming last night, I got a text message from one of the ladies at church. It said, "Have a blessed night. SLEEP with peace knowing our God reigns."
It had to be from God. I texted her back and thanked her.
Wednesday, February 6, 2008
Tuesday, February 5, 2008
Becoming a gem...
"No one said life was going to be easy.
And I know I get this attitude sometimes of "THIS ISN'T FAIR." I've said it a lot to myself. Why did things go this way for me? This is not fair. I don't deserve this. What did I do wrong? All of these thoughts come to me on a daily basis. But, I'm starting to see things from a different perspective.
A Chinese Proverb once stated, " "A gem cannot be polished without friction, nor a man perfected without trials."
So, just sit back and close your eyes. Envision yourself as a rock and there's a Master holding you. He's holding you and taking sandpaper rubbing you. It's rough. It's hard. And it hurts. You look at your Master so confused. Why are you doing this to me? Don't you see that it hurts?! Could you please stop? Let me rest for just a little while. You don't understand. And yet He continues. He continues rubbing.... adding a little fire to smooth you out. It burns. It hurts. And you look over at all the other gems. Why aren't they going through this process? Why did it have to be me?!
.... yet then He stops. And He holds you up to a mirror and you see how you shine. You see there are no more flaws, no blemishes. You're smooth. You're beautiful and you are able to make something beautiful for someone. You're His prized possession. He spent time on you.. perfecting you.. helping you.
During that time you didn't understand, but now you see.. He did it because He loves you.. and chose You for such a time as this.
Oscar Wilde stated, "What seems to us as bitter trials are often blessings in disguise."
I know times are hard right now. You feel like sandpaper is rubbing against you.. you can't get relief.. you can't catch a break. It feels like everyday.. you're being tested, but HOLD ON. Look up into your Master's eyes.. and notice how He looks at you. He looks at you so intensely.. making sure every area is smoothed out so that you can fulfill your entire purpose. And when He is completed.. He can see His reflection.
According to "How Gems are Cut and Polished... After a gemstone is sawed and ground to the desired shape and sanded to remove rough marks left by coarser grits, it is usually polished to a mirror-like finish to aid light reflection from the surface of the stone."
I know it's hard to not complain.. I'm there with you, but.. try and think of the purpose behind your trial you face today. Think about the fact that you have a GREATER purpose than what you face. Trust the Master to take care of you. Trust that He knows exactly what He's doing as He polishes..
... You're becoming a gem."
Sunday, February 3, 2008
While I'm having my pity party....
Also, just so you know, I'm going to pout via blog for the next week (or maybe just a couple of days), most likely.
Deal with it.
Change of plans.....
I hate Valentine's Day.
I love my cousin.
We Love Sunday School!
All of them did.

And soon the rest of the class joined in..

And this is what happens when you have a class of 13. And a camera.


Saturday, February 2, 2008
I went shopping....
My glasses are extordinarily crooked. I haven't the slightest why. But we look amazing, anyway. I assured Alison that she is forbidden to get married before me.
♥ We are the most awesome people that I know. ♥
I'm going shopping....
But if any of you are bored today, try IM'ing Tom on MyspaceIM. It's actually quite funny. Details later. I want someone to try it first.
P.S. The Groundhog has spoken. Boo to you, Punxsutawney Phil!
Soo,
Ok, maybe I was a little scared when the ghost who was foaming at the mouth popped into the little boy's tent. And when the kid with the bullethole in his head showed up. But the parts that were supposed to scare me (read as:scary woman in kitchen) didn't scare me all that much.
Nonetheless, I am still not sleeping yet.
And won't leave my room.
It's more of a deferred scared-the-poo out of me than an immediate one.
Delurking Week (Sticky Post)
This is going to be up for the rest of the week (read as: until I go and get my pretty dress!!), so take advantage of this oppurtunity. And remember, kids-
Friday, February 1, 2008
A First For Me
I'm 17 now, and have never, ever seen a scary movie.
Tonight I am going to resolve this. I am watching the Sixth Sense. My parents have assured me that I should be glad that I have a bathroom right next to my bed, as I will be afraid to leave the room afterwards.
My parents also told me that I had to watch the movie in the dark. Um, I'm keeping a night light on.
I love Zoolander....
Hahaha....Snow days rock.








