Heeheehee

PPF...Ecky!

Past- The anatomy test was awful. Icky. Icky. Or rather, Ecky. However, my studying in the non-clique this morning prompted Nikki to ask everyone in her path if she could touch their sternocleidomastoid. Just because she thought it was a fun word. And she has no regard for what others find as awkward. Thus is her Nikkiness.

Present- I'm studying for my psych test which is on Thursday. Sigmund Freud was a dirty old man, let me just say.

Future- I have HOP tonight. Yayness. I less than three HOP. Except for that Alison and I often have to be told to zip it and pay attention. Okay, maybe "often" is a stretch. But we have fun.

Speaking of people in HOP, I am going on yet another excursion to Mansfield on Saturday. I'm getting THE DRESS!!! And this time, Alison is going with us. This should be fun.

*sinister and evil laugh*

Are people really that dumb?

I feel like ranting this morning.

I've decided that at the moment, I am not going to let myself like anyone in "that" way. Now, I'm not so deadened that I don't have an idea of who I would probably fall for if I was allowing myself (actually, I have a fairly good idea), but at the moment, I am taking control of my emotions and telling them to stop for the love of almighty!!! The whole process of liking the guy, and then getting smushed into the ground like a marshmallow after an elephant has stampeded through gets a little old to me, quite honestly, and I'm done at the moment. It makes things too complicated, no one really gains in the long run, and while it provides me with good blog fodder, I'm sure it probably gets on the rest of your nerves.

Now, on a completely different note (and when I say completely, I mean COMPLETELY), those of you may have been informed that my relationship status (of single) has changed. To the people who started this nasty rumor, I only have one thing to say-

"Liar, liar, pants on fire!"

*blows rasberry*

I am still quite single, thank you very much.

Believe me, when this changes, I will be shouting it from the rooftops. Not keeping it secret and letting people (whose names have, probably in their best interest, been kept undisclosed to me) break the news to everyone.

Well, now.

Back to your regualarly scheduled programming.

Boo to you, Latissimus Dorsi

Isn't it just great how whenever you feel like poo, or have a great book that you're reading that you don't want to put down, or both, that your anatomy teacher gives you a test over the muscular system the following day?


Isn't that something?

Just throwing this out there.....

I have the greatest friends in the entire universe.

You may disagree, and say, "No, I have the greatest friends in the universe."

But you are wrong.

Mine are far superior.

Just so you know.

Because I have nothing to say this morning....

* rolls eyes*

Based on your score, you will get married


5 Years From Now!

You will meet a very special person at the place you work. You will fall in love and end up spending the rest of your life with them. You both will be intelligent and goal oriented, and that will pass on to your kids.

Wanting To Get Dressed Up, Because I DO Actually Have Someplace To Go....

I think this dress is pretty. I would like to give it a good home. And would like to wear it to the V-day Banquet. Because of it's prettiness.


But alas, I'm broke.



Alms?

So, While I'm Working On My English Research Paper....

It has dawned on me that Flappers are no longer as interesting as I thought they were.

I hate this time of year. Right now, I'm ramping up to a KAP American History Paper (which I am doing on the Counter Culture, aka-Hippies, Pot, and Woodstock.) which has to be 8-10 pages, not counting footnotes, a title page, and all that good stuff that I count into my normal page count. And this wonderful Honors English 11 Research Paper has to be 6-9 pages, including a bibliography page and an outline. That is why I'm researching Flappers. Because it has to be a 1920's subject and there are about 12 kids doing theirs on organized crime. Al Capone does not interest me. But then again, neither do Flappers. So I'm pretty much stuck.

English Paper is due February 19th. KAP is due April 3rd. I'm going to be eating, sleeping, and breathing bib cards and footnotes for the next 2 months. I'm thrilled, really.

Why does this keep happening?

So, randomly tonight, the ex of Mr.X, you know, the one who sent me hate mail last year, IM'd me out of the blue. Nice, right?

So we had a random conversation, like, she wanted to know if I had found something to wear for the v-day banquet, and then the interrogation began.

just curious why did you and MX break up????

did he ask you out or did you ask him?

was it just that you guys just grew apart or something else?

And then, the winner that had me rushing for the Invisible button-

ok i don't mean to be personal but did he ever kiss you or hold hands?? cause when we dated we held hands once and we dated 4 1/2 yrs but he seemed like he was to scared to do anything! it kinda bothered that's why i broke up with him and he hardly ever called! guys are suppose to make the first move but he didn't seem like he wanted to do anything!! lol what do you think?


This is the part where I say, um, thank you for your conversation, but I gotta go to bed now.

And then you delete the screenname and block it.

*shudder*

Resolution Check

So, we are now a little over 3 weeks into the new year. I never last this long with my resolutions. Ever. Okay, so the vegetarianism one lasted for a month, but still, usually they never last this long. Here's what has been going on-

1. Study harder- Um, I've done about the same. In some subjects I'm doing better than others.
2. I'm going to lose weight.- I'm working on it. I don't know exactly how well it's coming. When it thaws outside I'm going to run in the mornings.
3. I'm going to work on calling people back. -This has been a complete bust. Why did I even attempt that?
4. Finish the BREAD chart for once- I'm so proud of myself. I'm caught up! 3 weeks in! I usually give up on Day 3!
5. Fast every Thursday from Breakfast until at least 3 PM- This, I will not share, because it is none of your business.

Things I Am Wondering On This Snowy Morning

1. How the muffin you guys have never heard of Heath Ledger. Seriously. Have you not watched 10 Things I Hate About You? Or Knight's Tale? Or the Patriot? (Brokeback Mountain doesn't count. I shall only focus on the fact that he met his ex-wife there and they had a kid. The movie never happened.)
   
2. Where I can find a (cheap) red dress or red skirt.
3. How ironic is it that he met his WIFE on the set of Brokeback Mountain? That just seems to contradict itself. That just hit me. The irony is not lost.
   

In other news...

As all the high-esteemed NYC Twitter-ers are reporting, they just found Heath Ledger dead in his apartment.

What the muffin is up with that?!?!?!

Then, it dawned on me.

That "Hey, my reference to the Pick 5 is quite vague and people who don't usually read me won't get it!"


So, pretty much for my cousin's benefit (Hi, Tiffany!), here's what's going on.

I ALWAYS have to go to youth stuff by myself. But on February 15th, to the Valentine's thing, I am not going by myself, because one of my friends is going with me. Which is fun.

Huh?

Why is it that sometimes, when you get what you want, you wonder if it was what you actually wanted or should have been chasing after all?

Good Morning

It's freezing out, so Gabri and I are wearing our matching slippers

So, to end this day a little better..

I should be expecting a check from the Nebraska Pick 5 anyday now.

If you don't understand this, please get your IQ checked.

Worst-Case-Scenario Kind of Morning

So, this week keeps taking odd turns, doesn't it?

So, I almost had the courage to ask the person about going to the banquet with me as friends. I talked to his mom and made sure the whole thing was ok with her, and she seemed to think it was okay. She even asked, "Do you want me to ask him and give him the heads up?"

I was filled with great joy and love for her. But non-chalantly said, "Yeah, I guess that would be cool, you know, if you seem him before I do." Maybe not those exact words, but something like that.

A great load has been lifted from me. Yippee.

But, anyway, before I had said conversation, the most inprobable thing happenned. Yes, people. I walked out of the kitchen from the sunday school meeting and who do you think was standing there?

9YG.

I kid you not.

Do you realize the severe unlikelyhood of such an occurance? He lives 2 HOURS away! For the love of Bob.

This was greatly distressing, as I am attempting to muster great amounts of courage anyway, and here is this guy who I liked for 9 years. Of course, I'm a drama queen, so I stressed more than the average person. But wouldn't you flip out, too?

Augh!!!!

Probie, the brother of Gus the Gigantic

Many of you are familiar with Gus-Gus, but few of you know that said Gus is from my house. This is his brother, my guinea pig, Probie Jethro DiNozzo IV. Why is he the fourth? I haven't the slightest. It just sounded good at the time.

Why, God?

There's a line in the movie "The Preacher's Wife" that Denzel Washington says when the little boy's friend is being sent to a foster home in another city. The little boy runs to his room crying, and Dudley (the angel played by Denzel) watches Hakim (the little boy's friend) get in the car and ride away,looks upward, and says-

"I know you have a master plan, Lord. But sometimes you just don't make sense."

I don't think I ever really said how much of a refresher Mid-Winter was. It was amazing. I felt God more then, than I had in a long, long time. Bro.Goodman preached a message on Saturday morning that spoke to me so much. He spoke about how many kids leave camp or youth retreat or a rally and feel God. And then 2 weeks later, they feel nothing and have abandoned that rush that they felt at camp or retreat or rally. After the service, I was up front, weeping before God. I was one of those kids. That description was so me. I stood there, and images of so many people rushed through my head.

Hayley.

Deedee.

Dane.

Jalisa.

These people are members of our youth group who at one point or another were incredibly steadfast in their walk with God. They came to youth things and were so dedicated and committed. Our youth group has shrunk in the past year. At that moment, I made a promise to God that I was not going to be like them. I was not going to change. I was going to take what I received, and not only keep it after the retreat, but I was going to spread it and display it to others if it killed me.

I have tried so hard. Not just me. A whole group of us in the youth group have made extreme efforts to turn our church around and begin a revival. There's a group supporting each other and doing the BREAD chart. There's a group fasting every Thursday. We've made efforts to change our attitudes and think more positively.

We knew there would be opposition. But we didn't know it would be this bad.

A few days later, Ratchol broke up with her fiance. School has been getting the best of me. Elisha is gone. My friend Cassie, who doesn't even go to church with us, lost a friend in an accident. My best friend, who isn't even IN church, lost her grandmother.

Hit after hit has come against us. And for what?

For the past 2 weeks, since Mid-Winter and I made that promise to God, it seems like every time we think it can't get worse, we're proved wrong. It makes me angry and frustrated. I want to cry and punch things and go insane.

I talked to Ratchol today, and I told her that I'm to the point where people get, when they just want to throw in the towel and say, "God, I know you're omniscient. But have you ANY idea what you're doing?"

I don't doubt God. I will never turn my back on him. I know I have truth. I know there is a reason for all of this. I know I will be stronger for this. I know God has said that he will never put on us more than we can bear. I know God doesn't lie, so that must be true. I know he has a plan.

I just need to learn to deal with it.

My Musings Over Coffee

So, I'm having one of those weeks that has kept me in perpetually deep thought for the most part. Deep thought over nothing. And everything. Some are fickle, that people roll their eyes and say "Oh, she's a teenager and will grow out of it." and some of them are huge decisions that will affect me forever.

I found out about a week ago that I had failed the second quarter of Algebra 2. I was given two choices. I could either continue Algebra 2 in a different class, which we would have to ask the principal to do, or I could move to Bridges, and retake Algebra next year, and still get a math credit for the year. No, this is not as easy a decision as it sounds. I did end up moving down to Bridges, but the whole thing was an extreme pain in the buttocks. I still don't like the idea of me wasting a whole semester.

While we're on the subject of things wrong with school, did I mention I got a D on the Anatomy Exam?

I did however, end up getting a B- on my KAP History exam. Snaps for this great blessing from the Lord most high.

I also found out that I can be starting college next year. I can do post-secondary and have a year of college done when I graduate. This actually was a no-brainer. I am so doing that.

So, because of that, I signed up for the ACT last night. In April. That scares the poo out of me. (P.S. That may have been my proudest moment as a blogger EVER).

Also, Friday, I found out that Brittany, one of my friends from quizzing, is getting married August 16. When did this happen? My friends that I used to play war games with in the lobbies of churches for bible quizzing aren't supposed to be getting married! Me and Brittany used to write letters back and forth about 9YG! When did my friends turn into grown-ups?

And then, as with all my pondering, we have the guy scene. This is just too messed up to even comprehend. I wish that I didn't like anyone at the second. Because it's a pain in the butt. And I always like the ones I can't have. Which is why I will probably be going solo to the V-day Banquet. All though people are telling me to ask one person in particular. Who would say no. And would make life extremely awkward and painful. So what else is new?

So, I'm running out of time. Bus will be here soon and my brain is still in overdrive. Possibly more later. But who knows?

24 hours is just the beginning

So, it started at about 4 yesterday. I called Dawn and she told me that the four oldest have had their custody hearing pushed back until March. Elisha, however, was placed yesterday. And unfortunately for this side, he was sent back to his dad. I lost it. And from what I have heard, that seems to be the general reaction of the population.

And if that were not enough, I called Rachel to tell her, and she is sobbing on the other end. Her Nona, which is her grandma, died unexpectedly. She hadn't seen her since 8th grade (not her fault) but had written letters back and forth since her family's move here in 5th grade. This is her dad's (who also died) mom, and her grandpa died about 3 years ago. So, my best friend is a wreck and I am a wreck. So we sat on the phone, just crying and miserable for about half an hour. It's good to have a friend to do that with.

So, then, school today offered the same scenario. I wanted to go home so bad. I did not want to be at school. Rachel didn't stop crying all day.

When will the madness end?

I have weird friends....

So, I have a few friends who have a video production company. Because of this, they always end up making videos for English projects. Last year, they made a parody of Lord of the Flies. This year, Huck Finn. It's hilarious. To me anyway. And it's my blog so that's all that matters. At least stick it out until Luke's dad starts singing. That's worth the whole thing.

When you're praying tomorrow...

Dawn's kids have their custody hearing starting tomorrow. Pray that God's will be done, no matter what it may be and for everyone involved to have peace of mind about the situation.

Awkward Silence.....

So, Mr.X im'd me tonight. It was a pleasant conversation turned awkward.


Mr.X : you seeing anyone?
Me : no.
Me : unfortunately. i like someone, though
Mr.X : I could of swore I saw you with your arm around a guy at mid-winter, but then I realized it wasn't.
Me : rofl
Me : yeah, no. absolutely not me. lol
Mr.X : lol

-10 minutes of nothingness-

Mr.X : so how's church been?

And now, for something completely different.

moar funny pictures


moar funny pictures

Things you learn from Animaniacs...

Remember how I said I wasn't going to discuss my KAP American History exam? Well, we're going to discuss a little bit of it now.

I was watching an Animaniacs video- The Presidents to be exact- and all of the sudden uttered the following-

"Oh crap. Oh crap. Oh crap."

(I'm sorry, Sis. Jewel. I meant to say Carpe Diem.)

So, one of my exam essay questions was to compare Jefferson and Jackson. I hadn't the slightest except for I just KNEW that Jackson had been impeached. (History buffs, don't correct me just yet. I'm getting there.) And based my essay on this. Also, Jackson had many problems with slavery.

Here's the thing. Those things were perfectly true. About JOHNSON. And I said JACKSON.


Darn you, stupid timed essay exam!!!

Praise Our God

I'm now chilling, with 44 minutes left in the exam period, goofing off in the computer lab after my VB exam.

So, Spanish took a whole half hour and VB took about 15 minutes. This my friends, is a good thing.

My mom is coming at 11 to meet with my guidance counselor about my schedule for next semester, which as I mentioned before, may result in a new algebra teacher for me. This is also a good thing.

There really isn't anything to report about the exams today other than their easiness, and a game of tetris is calling my name.

The End Is Near!

I only have two (easy) exams today- Spanish IV and Visual Basic. This means that I get out at 11 this morning. Guess who's going back to bed when she gets home.

Wow, you're smart.

(PS- I realized after the comments that I forgot to clarify. Mom ended up borrowing our neighbors graphing calculator and bringing it to me. All was good.)

During yesterday's exams, I wanted to do one or more of the following-

• Run away screaming
• Stab myself repeatedly with a dull butter knife
• And shoot myself

Physiology made EVERYONE who took it want to die. That's probably not a good thing. Multiple choice wasn't so bad, but when I got to the essay I blanked out. I couldn't remember the 4 types of tissues and where they were found. Or how to draw a sarcomere. Or the 12 molecular steps of muscle contraction. I about died.

Thankfully, I had a lunch period (meaning you can go home during that exam period, if you don't have any classes normally on that period. Same goes for study halls.) so I had a good hour and a half to recover. I ended up going to the library and having way too much fun with my friends.

KAP History. We won't go there. I have purged it from my memory. Yeah. It was that bad.

Rachel came over after school for lunch and we ended up baking oatmeal cookies and watching Legally Blonde-The Musical. Which was awesome. So were the oatmeal cookies. I then worked on cleaning my room (and it's coming along nicely, too) and went to bed early. At 9:40. Voluntarily. And fell right to sleep. Sheesh.

The pictures at my left-

Which you all seem to love. Were stolen from Alison's camera. Because I am the youth group techie nerd and that comes with it's perks. Like setting up the youth group YouTube page.And downloading a bunch of fun pictures.

So anyway, the pictures. The one at the top of me kissing a macaroni penguin? Ok, so the youth group went to the zoo and split off into groups and I went with Ratchol, Rachelle (who I used to babysit), and Alison (who I also used to babysit). That makes me feel old. Ish. So, we had way too much fun and ended up kissing penguins. There isn't much behind this story other than that.

The second one, we had met up with Bro. and Sis.Redmond and their group and I saw this dragon and had to get a picture with it. So, I stuck my hand in its mouth and then they all came and joined me and tried to pull me out.

(No muffins were harmed in the taking of that picture)

The third one is Ratchol and Alison and I. Where did she take it? I don't know. When? I don't know.

No witty title?

Nope. And I find that sad. Let's have a moment of silence for the witty title that never reached full potential.


.......



And now we're good. Soooo, anyway, exams yesterday about gave me a coronary. Comparative Religion was so easy I could have done it in my sleep ( I am really going to miss that class) and English was okay, I guess. So, why in between the two exams was I bawling and having a breakdown? Because I realized I had forgotten my graphics calculator at home. And had an Algebra exam the last exam period. So I went to the office, asked to use the phone, and started to wail, which sounded something like this-

"MommyimgonnaFAILifidonthaveacalculator!!ImsoSTUPIDicantbelieveiF ORGOTmycalculator!"

It was just the incomprehensible. Nice.

On today's menu, Human Physiology, a break, and then KAP. Yay for a break!

And now (finally) a church scene from Mid-Winter..

Slacker Days

So, today is the first day of exams. Usually, I care incredibly and follow all of the teenage girl stereotypes of-

"O! M! G! I, like, TOTALLY hate my hair!"

and Saturday when I slipped on the ice, I even used the one phrase that I hate-

"You're so dead! You made me break a nail!"

I'm such a girl. I hate pink and ruffles, but I definitely have my girly streak.

Anyway, I'm absolutely slacking on that today. I woke up, so tired, despite going to bed an hour early, and just said "Forget it. It's exams. I don't care."

I mean seriously, I don't have anyone to impress. (Because we all know that The Muffin doesn't like anyone *wink* *nudge* Her muffiny powers are too great to fall into that trap.*resolves to go and repent for her lying ways on the world wide web*) So, today, I threw on the first, ok, second, things I saw. Which currently includes a very comfy flowy black skirt, a denim jacket, a white tank, and green flip-flops (thank you global warming!)

So, be in prayer for me today. The first two tests (Comparative Religion and English) ought to be ok, but Algebra...umm...PRAY SAINTS! PRAY!!

So, it was indeed an omen....

Guess who failed their last Algebra test of the semester?

Thus, guess who has an F for the quarter at the moment?

And just to shake things up a bit, why don't you guess who is staying after school to retake an Algebra test so that she doesn't fail the quarter?


Any takers? Anyone?

It's an omen?

I just dumped coffee on my shirt. This is two days in a row now. I don't like this.

So, I really can't afford to have an omen-ful week because it is that dreaded time of semester again. *drumroll please* That's right people, starting tomorrow, it is----

EXAM WEEK!!

So, here's my schedule for the week-

Wednesday
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Comparative Religion

15-minute break

Honors English

15-minute break

Algebra 2
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Thursday

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Anatomy and Physiology

Break

Homeroom (Free Study Exam Period)

Break

KAP American History
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Friday
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Spanish IV

Break

Visual Basic I
_______________________________________

So, yeah. I'm a little weirded out about Thursday especially, and then Algebra.

This week, I also decided I do not want to take VB II. I hate VB with a passion and was only taking the second semester of it because of web HTML. Then James told me that the class never gets to web HTML. So, forget that. But luckily, this allows me to switch Algebra classes. WOOHOO! Except in the rare case of me having a date for a certain Valentine's Banquet next month (Boo!) this quite possibly may be the greatest thing to happen to me for the year thus far. It will be amazing.

P.S. The odds of a V-day miracle occurring are about the same as me winning the Nebraska Pick 5. You may be saying to yourself, "Wait, is that possible? Did she enter the Pick 5?"

I did not.


This is what I'm saying.

Snowball War

So, eventually I will probably get to the spiritual moments of Mid-Winter that were great, but at the moment, let's enjoy a video of me getting pounded in the face with a snowball.



P.S. Many thanks to NinjaJohn for getting revenge on him, as I am a big wuss. Also, the whole thing made me laugh hysterically.

Mid-Winter Preview

While I wait to get the rest of the videos from Mid-Winter, because some stuff just requires visual aids, here's a little preview. This is me, Brittany, and Ratchol on the way to Denison this morning. We had way too much fun. I also have no rhythm.

No Way!

Dear Bob-The-Motorola-Q,

You have failed me. I am wounded. I understand that you are all for conforming and thought that you would be cool and clear your hard drive to be like SNB's computer, maybe that's what all of the cool techie toys are doing. You know, like high tops and poofy hair in the 80's. But really, was it necessary to clear off everything on my phone? I mean, call history I can understand but you went and deleted all the texts I had saved, like since October, and the videos I hadn't uploaded yet of my brother doing a Barbie funeral and wedding (which believe me, the people who read this would have found very funny), and that dumb video of Garrett threatening to take over the world with green jello, which let's face it, will never cease to make me laugh my butt off and thank god that I uploaded it to YouTube before you went dumb. Then, you had to delete all of my contacts, which you better thank God I had saved on my computer as back-up, which prevented me from throwing you across the room. That and Dad would have killed me. You also deleted my calender, which had my exam schedule and everything else on it. And my ringtones. You're so rude.
I would greatly appreciate it if you would refrain from clearing your memory again until such time that I tell you that you may do so. Such a measure would insure that I don't keel over in the prime of my life at 17.

Your Owner,

Her Royal Muffinness,
The Muffiny of the Muffins,

The Muffin

Happy New Year, People!

So, this is going to be a short post, as my New Year's resolutions are requiring me to be a boring and scholarly person. Boo. Hiss. But fear not. I never keep my resolutions. I should be my same slackery self in a week or so. Maybe a month, tops.

Anyway, because you all are DYING to know, let's announce my promises-to-myself-that-I-won't-keep to the world.

1. Starting with Exams, which are next week, I am going to make a study schedule. Yes, a study schedule. Requiring me to crack a book outside of my normal homework needs. I don't know what the schedule entails yet, but I'm sure I will make it within the next couple days.
2. I'm going to lose weight. Yeah, I know, I say this every year, but I mean it. I started near the end of 2007 losing some and I'm going to keep doing it.
   
3. I'm going to work on calling people back. This sounds dumb, but trust me. I never call anyone back. Ever. It's embarrassing
4. Finish the BREAD chart for once. I say every year that I'm going to do it and never do. It's also embarrassing. So, this year, Sis.Redmond and some of the girls in the youth group are going to work together on it. Meaning, holding each other accountable for doing it. We are also going to-
5. Fast every Thursday from Breakfast until at least 3 PM. Trust me, this is sooo not as easy as it sounds like it would be. At least for me. It's not the whole day thing, but it's a start.

So, there you go. My lies....errr...truthful promises that are going to make me a good person this coming year. I'm going to go work on #1 and #4 now. Happy New Year, all!

And old acquaintance be forgot....and all that good stuff.